I’ve been recording a so-called “podcast” for myself for almost a year. Episodes happen in bursts: almost daily for a period, followed by complete silence, then back to it for a short while. The longest I’ve gone without stopping is probably three months.

I do it because it’s beneficial to…

I have a confession to make. It just dawned on me that the story I’ve been relaying on these pages is one of perceived rejection, and not actual rejection.

I wasn’t really “ghosted”. I merely witnessed a disappearance.

I didn’t go on a “date”. …

How was I the one to get burned? I did not approach the stove this time, it approached me. I guess it doesn’t matter who does the approaching when it’s a stove: it always burns.

Let me put myself in her shoes:

  1. Notices local man on social media
  2. Watches him…

The saga has come to an end. No more worrying what cards the other side holds. No more mulling over silence. It’s clear as day: she’s not interested.

The revelation came in the form of a social media unfollow, paired with the doubly lethal “delete from your followers”. Out of…

Somebody asked me out. I was surprised because I usually don’t seek out attention, or at the least I do it very subtly. The reason is that I feel very unsexy. Not particularly physically, I’ve actually made strides in toning my body shape. I’m in my best shape of the…

I can tell I’m depressed because I’m feeling restless and I don’t know how to quell it. I’m incapable of choosing how to occupy my time.

Usually I’m at work, which distracts me. But this vacation week is more grueling than expected: without planning, everyday is an internal debate of…

Reduced dosage is the only way I can cope. I don’t recognize sobriety as abstinence. My sobriety is manageable usage.

I had one Aperol Spritz (with that name, who can resist?), one Pilsner, and one shot of Jamieson. …

I had a great first half of the year in 2021. At work, at home, creatively, on myself, my body, my mental state. But I started to let loose in summer as the pandemic restrictions were lifted. I started craving that lust for lostness.

It started with taking up smoking…

I thought that just staying healthy, having creative projects, maintaining a stable lifestyle, maintaining stable relationships, would be enough to feel fulfilled. But despite staying on track, and staying positive, there comes a time where nothing makes sense. That’s when you need a little something called resilience.

Resilience is the…

I had two beers at Mel’s party yesterday. Then I went to a limited capacity event at the Montreal SAT, to see two local DJ’s with a reputation for danceable African rhythms.

My stay at Mel’s party was brief, but cool. As per tradition, it was held at a public…

Hugo B. Hugo

Online radio host, hip-hop artist, old-school blogger, from Central America, based in Montreal, Canada.

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