Becoming Increasingly RationalI’ve been recording a so-called “podcast” for myself for almost a year. Episodes happen in bursts: almost daily for a period, followed by…Oct 31, 20211Oct 31, 20211
Big Baby Ego Needs ValidationI have a confession to make. It just dawned on me that the story I’ve been relaying on these pages is one of perceived rejection, and not…Sep 14, 2021Sep 14, 2021
Faulty IntuitionHow was I the one to get burned? I did not approach the stove this time, it approached me. I guess it doesn’t matter who does the…Sep 12, 2021Sep 12, 2021
And Just Like That: It’s OverThe saga has come to an end. No more worrying what cards the other side holds. No more mulling over silence. It’s clear as day: she’s not…Sep 12, 2021Sep 12, 2021
Unready: Oscillating EmotionallySomebody asked me out. I was surprised because I usually don’t seek out attention, or at the least I do it very subtly. The reason is that…Sep 11, 2021Sep 11, 2021
The Throes of DepressionI can tell I’m depressed because I’m feeling restless and I don’t know how to quell it. I’m incapable of choosing how to occupy my time.Aug 4, 2021Aug 4, 2021
You Must PayReduced dosage is the only way I can cope. I don’t recognize sobriety as abstinence. My sobriety is manageable usage.Aug 3, 2021Aug 3, 2021
Behaviors To CurbI had a great first half of the year in 2021. At work, at home, creatively, on myself, my body, my mental state. But I started to let loose…Jul 27, 2021Jul 27, 2021
Rationale For LivingI thought that just staying healthy, having creative projects, maintaining a stable lifestyle, maintaining stable relationships, would be…Jul 27, 2021Jul 27, 2021
Mel’s PartyI had two beers at Mel’s party yesterday. Then I went to a limited capacity event at the Montreal SAT, to see two local DJ’s with a…Jul 25, 2021Jul 25, 2021
